(Figures they would give me the tough one as the starter of the 30 blogs....)
I for one have many that remind me of how far I've come. Many meaning - just that almost every relationship I have been in reminds me of this. (trust me... there have not been "many" but you know what im getting at)
I, like many women seem to pick the bad boy and fall madly in love only to get my heart stomped as we have read in ALL my previous blogs. So with that- I do look to the future knowing I do not want to stand for that behavior anymore. I wont. I am tougher than nails and guess what- the lies you're spitting - I've heard it all baby.
I am positive there is NOTHING I have not heard- and if your looking for someone to run game on... welll... then.. GAME ON. I dont have time for the pain , the suffering or quite honestly the bullshit.
I have learned my lessons, and learned what I want from a man... from My life partner! (and no where does it say any of the ex boyfriends from 2008 and beyond)
In the same sense, one always has one they can vision "what would it have been like if it had worked out".... this one often can be in the same catagory- showing us where we came from... and how we dont /or shouldnt ever go back... but the wonder is always there. I am convinced, one may always wonder. Even on our happiest days. We cant deny at one time we had love for someone- very deep love.And at one time- the idea of marrying him may have played a role ... or a fantasy.
Years may pass and I may always wonder- BUT- I am confident, I am the true gem in the past AND PRESENT when it comes to that one... and I am also confident, that no matter how much I may wonder- he too will wonder- and WISH he had not made those mistakes so many years before. When he does grow up- a girl like me will be the diamond in the rough he will be desperate to find.
one down.. 29 to go.
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