So, I'm getting married. Did I leave that part out? If so, rumors are true :) bitch got the break... Sorta.
isn't it what they always say - "grass is always greener..." well I'm positive I'm living proof of just the type of deranged individual sayings like that are made for.
In the process of this planning phase of a wedding, a few things are in my head- ofcourse one is excitement for my life to take off, have a family, have a wedding..... but issues 2,3 and 4 are selfish and embarrassing. So, I thought maybe I should google it. Certainly I'm not the only girl in the world who has selfish dreams of grander.... or am I? They surely don't make it look like this in the movies.....
Truth is I'm terrified to be a grown up. ( yes. I'm 30 fucking years old already. no need for commentary) its true. I don't want to leave "29, wild and damn fine" behind. I actually like being alone! I like my crazy antics with my best friend... I like doing what I want when I want. and this means I can no longer do sneaky crazy things and plot sneaky crazy ideas with the BFF with plans that if we actually do these things, we then, have to cover each others ass so we don't get caught! (your thinking wow, this story is getting good, but a lady never tells her secret. or her best friends)
I thought about running away like Thelma and Louise or being a golden girl but I know for a fact the Golden Girls all were married at least once before committing themselves to the over 60, living in miami club...
So that's where I am at. Is this normal.... maybe I SHOUlD google it...?
