true life episode....

I'm gonna start my blogging in the present... my current status of life.... this bitch just cant get a break...

if something bad is gonna happen (and i mean bad..lightly) .. it'l happen to me. I like to think of it as my little black cloud.. occassionaly becoming my little black tornado...that follows me everywhere. I used to think that someone had it in for me "up stairs.." ... or that maybe i had been some horrible cheater of a wife in my past life... all of which could be possibilities but for now im content just admitting good 'ol..old fashioned bad luck.

for example.. i love camaras. i love pictures. especially pictures that showcase my friends and i being wild ... so i saved up money last summer and bought one.. 2 weeks later.. it was stolen... at the club! and in my wildest of drunken rages... i cried andstomped my feet and proudly almost got kicked out of that club... so i vowed to be camara-less... and never buy one again... until now.. a mth ago. i bought a cute like purple nikon.. used specifically to document my good times.. and what happens in the midst of the 4th of july festivities last friday... ( yeah food fun and fireworks my ass)... my friend drops it! and blah! ITS BROKE! FOR GOOD!
is it a curse? the camara curse???

either way... im again... camara-less...

i went and saw sex in the city for the 2nd time this weekend. I for one must enjoy the painful being left at the alter scene far too much... i think im secretly planning what my reaction will be when i probably have the same thing happen to me one day ( are you following..??? the bad luck thing remember) yeah... that whole scene... thats me... wanting to kill myself and hitting the asshole groom ( whom by the way should have never gotten the chance to be with carrie.. ( or me either for that matter) ... while my girl friends hold me back from my rage and anger and loss of will to live. My bestfriends and i laugh..cause that is totally us... only in a lesser sense... for one- i was never getting married... (haha or probably ever) and for two- our scenes are usually enduced with alcohol and way too much drunken emotion...

so thats where i leave off today ... and in the meantime... my true life episode: this bitch cant get a break is to be continued